yeah, kinda sad at the moment
time caches up to you quickly!
i was givin a little time to relax to day and i relised that this is the year that most of the friends that i've gone through school since like elementary are going to graduate. i'm happy for thm and all that but it also shows a reflection of myself, next year im outa here as well and while im excited and a little nervious i'm really sad about it. some of the places i am thinking about going to are ether out of the contry or the west coast. im in a split because i wana go see the world and get away from my rents, but at the sametime i'd loose that feeling of home or belonging. and theres my girlfriend. i absolutly love her, i'd do anything for her (even take a bullet). she's got some issues with school and rents and it hurts to see her depressed. but i'm allways there for her and i feel that im here to get her out of her hell and in a sense rescue her. but with me leaving that will ceece to happen. i could stay local which has its benifits (i know everything, hang with the friends who are staying here, stay with my girlfriend, if need to see rents) and im ok with that. i'd be ok staying here i think. Sam if you are reading this i love you more than life and i will do everything i can and more to see you happy.

yours truely forever
-Pat